Pivot

Earlier this year, when I was working with a mentor on my photography business, I had a realization that I was not expecting or was ready for.  We were talking about a possible opportunity that was being presented to me.  And when I was talking about this possible opportunity, she saw my eyes light up and I had excitement in my voice.  This was not there when I talked about my business/photography.  She was brave and asked me the hard question “Is photography what you want to do for a career?”  And when she asked me, I realized at that moment something was missing for me.  This something that I was missing is part of who I am.  This something was the relational piece.  While some photographers create a long term relationship with their clients, but for me, it seemed like a transaction after having worked in the social service field for so long.  God created me to be a relational person.

The feelings I experienced after this realization was like a gut punch!  What I thought I wanted to do for the rest of my life was no longer what I wanted to do.   And the primary feeling I felt was lost.  This feeling of being lost was somewhat familiar.  I had felt this after I left my job in social work in May 2019.  But the difference between the two, was that this time I felt truly lost.  I did not know what to do or where to head next.  I felt like I was going to be stuck in jobs that did not fulfill who God has created me to be for the rest of my life.  Like I was just going to float through life just existing not thriving.  I had heard of people who hated their jobs and just went because they needed to make ends meet.  I have never hated a job and I did not want to be the case.  I knew that I did not want to live my life existing and that I was created for more but in these moments it felt like just existing was what I was destined to.

Soon after this realization, God planted a seed into my heart and mind of a possible direction that I was meant to go.  He even gave me a framework for a course to go with the idea He gave.  And it would help fill the piece that I was missing in my photography business.

You would think since He gave me the idea and framework for the course, I would have jumped on board with the idea immediately.  But it took me a while to get on board with God.  He waited patiently as grieved what I thought I wanted in life and worked to through my feelings.

Part of what I needed to work through I had put myself in this box and I did not want to be viewed as someone who just changed directions on the whim.  I eventually came to the conclusion that this direction change for me is no different than someone else changing careers.

When I finally got on board with the seed that God planted, it felt right.  I did not feel like I was trying to fit a square into a round hole anymore.  It made sense with what I know about myself and how God created me.  And it was one of the parts of my job that I loved when I was working in social services.

I have always loved seeing the aha moments happen in the process when someone is empowered to dream and creates steps for those dreams, despite their circumstances.  All the while looking at the roadblocks that stand in their way.  This is the seed that God planted in me in March of this year.  This seed will blossom into many beautiful flowers as people are empowered to grow into who they are created to be.

You can find more information on this at Marilyn L Weaver.

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